Self Criticism

How is your relationship with Criticism?

You have been criticizing yourself for years and it hasn’t worked, try approving yourself and see what happens

Self Criticism…I have felt that criticism is always there. It may come from someone but mostly it comes from within. Self-criticism disables me to think clearly.

Like everybody else. I am at a point in my life where everything has a standard. Deadlines rush you and push you to the limits that you are unable to do your best most of the time.

You are criticize based on how you act, look or even how you speak. Everybody wants you to act in a certain way that conforms to the norm.

Me, I am my biggest enemy. I have criticized myself for not having a father growing up. Then, I’m always thinking that I am not good enough.

I am always mediocre at school and even work. Much less, I don’t have the strength to be assertive and to do the things that I really want.

I am afraid that someone might take it as an insult or worst questioning what they are doing. It is hard for me to impose the things that I want.

I just go with the flow and accept all the criticism. Today, I view criticism in a positive way. I might feel bad for a few hours, but I always find the bright side of it.

The only thing that bothers me is how I criticize myself. Throughout the years I gained weight.

In fact, my BMI or body mass index is close to obese. I downloaded a lot of applications so that I can tract my weight. Tried to follow the eating habit of famous celebrity but ended up binging all the time.

Self Criticism

Self Criticism

It hurts to know that I can’t control my eating habits. It came to a point where I chose to take a diet pill instead of focusing on the things that I can do to shed those pounds.

I don’t love the person that I see in the mirror. It only reminds me of how horrible I am. Then, It became a cycle. I let myself go. Eating too much, exercising less. I am too focused on being a couch potato.

As a result, I question my self-confidence. Also, criticism always gets in my head. I know my shortcomings but I don’t have the guts to consistently right my wrongs.

I am a bit odd growing up. My parents got separated early. Being that, I was bullied a lot. My self-grooming is not perfect growing up.

My hair is all over the place. There was an instance that my teacher cut my hair in front of the class. I felt horrible during that time. 

That was twenty years ago. But, it felt like yesterday. I still remember the name of my teacher and I can see the face of my classmates making fun of me.

It was a traumatic experience for me. If they only knew what Im struggling during that time. It is never okay to ridicule someone.

Back then, no one wants to be my friend. I’m the girl who smells a lot and doesn’t know how to groom herself.

I’m self-critical and really hard on myself. I wonder always today If I’m good enough employee, daughter or even a wife to my husband.

As a final point, people love to judge people. Admit it ourselves that we often judge something based on what we see or read from the internet.

People want to read negative stories. This how our world view as something that we can talk about and not focus on the problems that we are facing.

Don’t give those critiques power to control. Be the person that you truly want and be happy with what you are.


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